It's finished.
They loved it...all of it....not just the painting but even my story about how I found focus and the title for the piece. I got to see it hanging in their home and it was fantastic to see a piece from beginning to the end.
All my worry was for naught over being able to complete a satisfying piece. I learned one way to get to the finish line was for me to please myself. If I was pleased, then I was certain they would be pleased as well. So worry and agony over decisions should never have been in the equation, then of course I found something else to worry about.
I lost the sight in my left eye.
It happened while painting the commission piece.
A couple of weeks earlier I had noticed some strange stuff going on in my right eye. I thought it was because of the intense sunlight outside and my possibly being effected by the sun that day. The black streaks that ran through my eye at that time eventually faded but not completely. During this time I also seemed to be having my very own lightening storm in my eye. I could see flashing lights whenever I was walking in the dark. I thought wow...wonder what's going on. I kept my right eye covered whenever I went outside and things seemed to be clearing up. Then wham.....while painting on the commission piece there was a bright halo and then blackness in my left eye.
Scared the you know what out of me. I went immediately to the family doctor and though my bp was high at the time (mainly because I was so scared) the doctor didn't think it was high enough to be the cause of the problem. I had a referral to an opthomologist for later that day. I sat for 3 hours for the opthomolgist to work me in his schedule, I probably would have sat all day, I needed to know what was happening.
Ok, I will tell you having your eyes dilated is not a fun deal, and at some points I thought the doctor had climbed inside my eye to see better, it hurt so much. It seems the vitreous gel in my eyes is shrinking and as it shrinks, it pulls away from the retina. This causes little cells to pop off and float in the gel, sometimes the pull is so severe that it tears the retina. The black lines and streaks are blood vessels that have popped; and the white lights and ligthening I am speaking of, is the actual moment that the gel pulls away. I could go blind. How about that....all my life I have said I could stand anything as long as I could keep my hands and my eyes.
I am adjusting to the situation, and learning to look past the junk in my right eye and hopefully find that the left eye will gradually gain its vision again. Not much hope for this; but, why not think positive.
I have been told to take it easy...lol.
I have been told to rest. Yeah.
I have been told absolutely no jarring head bumps. HUH!
and I have been told not to pick anything up. OH MY .
What causes this....lol...the opthomologist says OLD AGE....I say "but I haven't gotten there yet". JEEZ LOUISE.
