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| The Swamp |
It is time. It is now... and as they say if not now then when? So back to painting and finding joy in it again. What can produce such happiness? Oh, well selling some work of course. I once asked myself if I paint for the joy of painting or do I paint just to sell. I enjoy selling what I paint that is as simple as it gets. LOL. I enjoy hearing the comments made by someone who wishes to own one of my works. It validates me, then I change the subject because it embarrasses me when someone gets so close to what made me paint that, or understands the emotion behind the painting. I am my own worse critic and if you listen to me my work is terrible. I never feel it is finished nor do I think it is good. I have pieces that were bought by a University and in their collections. I thought are they kidding me??? I have work that is bought for corporations and I my self talk is.. "what is up with that". I have had work selected for competitions and actually get a notices of achievement. I have work on Magazine covers.. and I am dumbfounded. I paint. It is my gift. I unfortunately look at it as my cross to bear. Shame on me......... but I paint. I have to paint or do something creative... there is no doubt whatsoever... that I will paint. Back to my original question, When..... I say NOW.
On a side note...Things that I had scheduled are once again blown out of the water.
I will have to take time to readjust. I am a creature of planning. My husband often tells me "best laid plans' Yet I still make plans.... then have to adjust when they don't work out exactly as scheduled. The latest plans were to be with my sister during surgery and with my daughter in law while at M.D. Anderson... it was fine tuned and fit like a puzzle to do both.... until today. Now readjusting. Sister's surgery was rescheduled after a month's wait to the very day I am suppose to be with Daughter in Law and family for her cancer check up. I am stressing.
